I'm in a desperate situation and I dont know what to do.
I've heard that most or many of traditionalists homeschool and don't go to colleges or universities for obvious reasons.
Well I made a really bad choice and now I am stuck in a completely heretical, blasphemous and abominable Novus Ordo university. The semester has just started but I cant take it anymore. I feel so bad. I dont ever want to go there again. I have financial aid and I've been researching and looking at the consequences of "walking out" and just not going to class anymore. Basically failing the entire semester. I won't withdraw because I read if I do that I would have to pay myself right now and i cant.
This is my 6th semester there and I've never failed a class. I have passed all the semesters before. The only thing is that i've done 2 incompletes and right now im supposedly doing one because i got an incomplete last semester.
The thing is i have been "off and on" with God and the Catholic Faith the whole time ive been there but now i am resolved 100% not to offend God in the slightest anymore and i dont want to keep offending God by going there anymore!
I am a 23 year old sedevacantist male. As you may know these universities are a complete scandal and occasion of sin. I am taking 4 classes and only 1 of them isnt heretical, blasphemous or an occasion of sin class-content-wise, which is accounting. In the other 3 classes, the professors do "prayers" at the start and sometimes at the end; they make us participate with the other people there; they just cant help themselves in saying heresies and blasphemies all the time, and in one class, art, there are immodest and bad pictures and things like that so all the classes really, are an occasion of sin. Obviously all the women go dressed immodestly and in shorts, jeans, see-through, etc. etc. I feel contaminated and polluted and corrupted just by being there.
So right now im thinking, will i keep offending God by being silent and by compromising, by basically denying the Faith and shutting my mouth, and by all kinds of sins of omission, or will i get the heck out of here right now even if i fail the semester and get in big trouble with my family?
By the way i live outside the U.S. but it is an american university, the one i go to. My parents could provide for me if i were to get out of the university, they would never kick me out of the house, so i think i could stay with them until i decide and plan what im going to do. I am living with them and they are Novus Ordo pagans and im trying to convert them.
So, these last few days i have just been thinking about this because i dont know what to do or what would be the best choice and i would just like to see what would some of you do in this situation.
I know that i shouldnt even be there to begin with because it goes against everything the Church teaches and Tradition, such as co-education, non-Catholic school, ocassion of sin, etc. It's just abominable and i cant take it anymore.
I figure i could get expelled anyways if i were to speak up and denounce the professors and the whole university, so i think i should just stop going from now, it will be the same result.
I mean they even teach evolution here! A "catholic" university.
I have been missing some classes on purpose because I just don't want to be here anymore.
There is one class, basic public speaking, in which we are forced to work in groups and with partners and that kind of thing, and there's just no way you won't end up denying the Faith and God. There is even an open ɧoɱosɛҳųαƖ in this class and I may well end up having to work with him some day because the professor picks the groups at random!
The only thing holding me back from just not ever going again is that if I would owe the university and would have to pay myself or something like that, I will get that clear with the financial aid office here.
This is all my fault because I shouldn't even be here in the first place.
My problem is deciding to get out right now, today, or finish the semester, because I have decided there's no way I will ever come here again.