Sweet lady, do not lose patience or courage. Do not let this matter cause any loss of peace, as such is not from God. He wants you to be free and happy, and to walk joyfully in whatever way He has marked out for you.
The BEST reason for choosing ANY particular path is: God wills it.
RELAX: At the moment, you are not in a position to take EITHER path (not TODAY, anyway), so keep your peace, pray to God and Our Lady, and know that all will be well.
Choosing the right road can be hard at times, but it should not be a torture. BE AT PEACE, my lady - be at peace. Godspeed.