Telephorus,
What, as a Catholic man, do you believe unwed mothers should have to do to be free from their shame?
I shared my story on another thread. I am not trying to make excuses for my choices, but to give some perspective. Not all unwed mothers are horrible people. We are all sinners, but my sin can be seen by others. She is almost 9 months old and she is God's beautiful creation.
I have tried so hard to be a virtuous woman despite circuмstances that leave me submerged in secular, feminist culture. My sins are forgiven but no amount of prayer can change my past. What should my pennance be?
I only attend NO mass because I'm too ashamed to go elsewhere
I once drove several hours to the closest SSPX church I could find because I felt the Holy Spirit wanted me there.Yet my shame was more than I could bear. I sat in my car, nursed my baby and begged for answers from the Lord.
I never feel worthy of receiving the Eucharist even when I've made a good confession.I head cover and can barely even look up at mass sometimes. I feel I commit ongoing sin by u sing daycare for my baby, but what choice do I have? Most men would not allow me not work even if they would take me as a wife.
I am 23. I have been told I am attractive. I keep myself very fit, but I try not to be vain. I have changed the way I dress. I have a limited budget but I do try to save a little to look nice. It feels so counter to everything I know from the secular world, but I want to dress with dignity.I have begun to cover my hair even for NO mass. I often cover when I pray for humility.
What more can I do? Must I spend the rest of my life in shame? Will I ever attract a man to marry me if I don't even feel comfortable in a traditional mass setting?Wll he want to marry someone when he cannot see my face?
What else should I do to repent?