Not many things shake me like this. This is going to be a boring topic but it may be relatable for some of you. I remember when my 15-years older brother, 30 at the time, had his entire family including his wife and 2 kids inside of my mother's mobile home and she spent all of her time and money caring for them while I went to school with shoes from 5th grade that gave me nerve damage from how small they were in the 8th. During their year long stay, he abused his 3 year old son, and created another baby. Another kid. Brought another soul into the equation. They ate lasagna and watched movies. The floor was rotting in. The home smelled. There was no insulation. They ate lasagna and watched movies. And had sex. So did my mom. Nobody saw any kind of problem with it. My mom ruthlessly defended it. Told me "Lucifer got kicked out of heaven because he felt like he deserved better." This is everyone in my entire family throughout different situations.
This got remembered when I was talking to my newly wheel-bound aunt's husband, he was telling me that she liked Chef Ramsay and funny cat videos. Funny cat videos. She is disabled due to depression by starving herself and barely walking, whilst watching funny cat videos. I see why some people think everyone with no kind of money should be eradicated. I had opportunities to make 10k+ at the ages of 12 & 13, but it meant doing something moronic and unproductive so I turned it down. Robbing people. I wish that not on anyone, I have done everything in my power to hopelessly help everyone around me no matter who's struggling, I can see why many people help no one. That can never be me, however since that experience when I was 14-15 I choose who I help and who I support very carefully. Everyone, I pray for.
Is this a common thing?