Looking at these documents, I would, if I died today, go to Hell. It's depressing. Problem is that I have this conservative (I hope) Norvus Ordo priest whom I confess to (behind the screen, of course) who is impatient with me, and I find it difficult to go through all the commandments, precepts of the Church, etc. And, I do not know what he believes, so I feel kind of awkward about it. I try to hurry, be specific, but it is difficult. He will sort of "cut me off," and even though he has never met me face to face, I think that he "knows" me when I come into the confessional, even though I only confess every two weeks to a month. No traditional priests are in my area.