Dear Spouse, I am certain many here will pray for you. But yes, do your Perfect act of Contrition and don't forget the daily Rosary.
So many of us here squader the graces we have, and go through all of the public displays of piety without an ounce of love in their heart.
Don't let that liar the Devil tempt you to fear and discouragement. God the Father will not abandon a soul who truly wishes to know, love, and serve Him. You are living in extraordinary circuмstances, and Our Father knows this. Try hard to be good! We ALL fail in different ways!
Pray often to the Guardian Angels, all Holy Angels. You will see that great things happen to assist you in your quest to become a member of the Church.