I plan on getting my life back in order. I hope I can help my daughter...I will not give in, but I do think that it's my spiritual crisis that lead to this situation. I'm the one in conflict about being a woman, about being a wife...and how I'm to live in this world as a Catholic.
Not knowing what sort of access you have to good spiritual advice, I will offer the following little nugget. It is not my advice, but is found constantly among the Saints' writings and the writings of the spiritual masters. If you already have access to a true, experienced spiritual guide or simply don't care what some guy on the net has to say about such deep, incomprehensibly-important matters, feel free to completely ignore me :)
The Saints teach that daily meditation/mental prayer is morally necessary if we are to save our soul. This means that, barring a miracle of grace, we will not save our soul unless we habitually practice mental prayer -- a truly sobering thought. If we do not know God and ourselves, we cannot even really begin to get down to the very hard work of eradicating our faults and growing in actual (versus merely-apparent) virtue. Fidelity to a few external practices doesn't cut it; this is more true in our day than ever before because modern life is very distracting and our energy and focus are easily dissipated, bleeding us of all spiritual vigor before we even know what happened.
In a word, growth in the spiritual life is real, hard work that requires constant effort. Even the best of us will still fall from time to time, however, and we must have an unwavering resolution to get up, dust ourselves off and begin again with renewed vigor. We can do all things with God, but we must be doggedly determined to become and remain recollected throughout each day or we will be easily overcome in the spiritual combat.
There are countless excellent books that can assist you in your labors and each of us is different with respect to what will appeal to us and help us most. For what it is or is not worth, one of my absolute favorites is The Soul of the Apostolate
. Although the author was writing with priests in mind, the principles he lays out hold for every Christian. The Imitation of Christ
and The Spiritual Combat
are other classic aids that have stood the test of time. There are many more, but no one needs or can possibly make use of all of them. May the Holy Ghost help you find and make good use of whatever tools He alone knows will help you the most. He is the sanctifier of our soul; constantly beg Him to help you and you cannot fail.
Be assured of my prayers; please pray for me. Godspeed, Ma'am.