Greetings,
Are there any resources/guides on the process of fulfilling a vocation to the monastic life, or perhaps a vocation to becoming a hermit? I did a few searches and found scattered information here and there on the forums, but nothing comprehensive. My location, if it matters, is Southern California.
I am fairly confident I have a religious vocation, which possibility was first made known to me nearly 20 years ago around the age of 12 during an interaction with a priest (who has posted on this forum before), but I obstinately resisted and banished the thought. I believe it likely it was only through my daily rosary alone - my life certainly has little to no other merits - (which I would never have even prayed daily had it not been for living with my devout parents) that I was spared certain especial punishment at Judgment, forced to confront the truth of my sinful resistance, and given enough time (I pray) to amend my life.
I single out the monastic life in particular as perhaps the vocation to which I was fitted, because I grew up in a family of some means, and recently I have lost much attachment to material possessions - I do not say “all attachment” lest I render insult to those holy souls who truly live with no attachment, in whose company I hope to one day be. Into this vacuum, I have found that I feel a need to pray almost constantly, which I do - not nearly as well I should, but my mind forms the words.
Generally speaking, internally I feel the pervasiveness and depth of evil in the world are so great, the solution can only come from Divine intervention, which can only possibly be obtained, I believe, through sufficient souls living lives pleasing to God (which there is a dearth of), upon which God may freely and mercifully deign to use other human means as instruments for a remedy. But the instruments, I believe wholly now (I erroneously did not believe before), are ancillary, though they also be guided and strengthened by God if He so chooses to fit them for His purpose.
For my entire life I have wasted my modest God-given intellect on frivolities and vanities rather than put it to even cursory effort toward learning the faith; I hope my thoughts here had some semblance of coherence. I welcome correction and clarification.
Thank you and please pray for me.
Greetings, Nous, in Christ,
Let me sincerely thank you for this post. It's wonderful!
First, you cite the Rosary as your salvation and your hope, and so it is. You discern the truth. It is your past, your present, and your future. Good.
Secondly, you have a strong calling to prayer. Also very, very good. And I would draw your attention to the notion that if one is to devote their life to prayer, then they should pray the most efficacious and powerful prayer available to them - namely the Divine Office, namely the prayer which has an objective rather than a subjective essence, the prayer which is formal and substantial rather than material and founded upon human changeability, the prayer which is infallible, canonized, not belonging to the class of individual prayer, but to the public, corporate prayer of Jesus Christ and His Church.
This is not so much a prayer we make, but a prayer we enter into. It is a prayer to which we have access by means of our membership in the Mystical Body. When this prayer reaches God's ears, He hears it, infallibly and efficaciously, because it is the Voice of His Son. There is a subjective element - an accidental quality - an element of individual merit; for one must set his will to the yoke of making this prayer daily and regularly, no matter how much the body and the passions flag. But, no matter the feebleness of the one who takes it up, this prayer is great, and full of potency to bring good, and order, and Divine power into the world, by the very agency of its essential objectivity and its Divine institution.
I wholeheartedly agree with you that the evil onslaught, so horrible and incomprehensible, so vast and metastasized, is incapable of responding to vigorous human intervention, let alone the effeminized impotence of the modern. Corporate action belonging to the temporal sphere is impossible now, due to the paralysis that has set in, the effect of incessant dissolution of natural and supernatural bonds.
But there is no need to lose hope. For we have remaining to us the principle of the Banner on the battlefield. Down to the last solider, the Flag must be lifted up and carried for all to see. It is the rallying point for the corporate body, for the very kingdom. It must be lifted up, it must be seen and recognized, by the body, by the individual, by the foe.
There are two orders of the Banner, if I may so nominate. The visible order and the invisible order. Both nature and supernature participate the visible order. For example, we see in history that our Lord himself demanded of the king of France that the image of the Sacred Heart be placed upon the king's banner. I would speculate, however, that only supernature participates the invisible order. This is a mysterious reality, because it involves the direct relation of God and the individual soul, but simultaneously, the individual soul carrying the Banner relates to God also as an agent of the Body, even as the Body itself, just as the lowly battlefield soldier who picks up the fallen flag, represents the kingdom, is the kingdom itself - and yet earns the individual merit of his valor and fidelity.
I tell you, Nous, that the Banner of which I now speak is the Divine Office. I fervently believe that the Holy Rosary is necessary for salvation, and that if one must make a choice between praying the Office and praying the Rosary, one must choose the Rosary. For devotion to the Mother of God, and fidelity to Her Rosary, is
sine qua non for getting in and staying in the state of grace.
There is an objective quality of the Rosary, which, when prayed corporately, has great coercive power over the agencies of darkness. See Lepanto, et. seq.. Nevertheless, given the vagaries and difficulties of the day, given we have no hierarchy to gather the Rosary in, and make of it the potent weapon it is meant by God to be, it often falls out that the Rosary is relegated to the care of individuals and small bodies, such as families and church congregations. In other words, the Rosary is somewhat at the mercy of men, in its being wielded as a mighty weapon, and therefore fluctuates in its participating the objective and the subjective orders. It is always efficacious, whether it participates either order, for it can save an individual soul or a family from damnation, regardless of any divisions that prevent a more efficacious and organized deployment. But, I think, the Rosary is somewhat dependent on the good will of men, with regard to its quality of participating the objective order.
Conversely, the Divine Office cannot be removed from the objective order. It is NEVER substantially the prayer of an individual. Even if only one man in a million is faithful to it, even if that man is divided from all other men - materially or psychologically - whenever he prays the Divine Office, he prays in the person of Christ, and in the Person of the Church. Though it does obtain merit for the individual, though it can be offered for souls and intentions, though it absolutely does sanctify the person devoted to it, because it steeps that person's mind in Scripture and Tradition, it is not a subjective prayer. It does not participate the subjective order, except accidentally.
Make no mistake. Christendom was founded upon the Mass and the Divine Office rising up to God every single day, for hundreds and thousands of days. Christendom rose upon the prayer that belongs to the objective order.
I can give you no advice about getting into a monastery, but I can suggest a guideline or two.
1. You are a late bloomer. You've got to play catch-up. You've got to reform yourself, and train yourself. You've really got to go into the desert in your current circuмstances. God will test you in smaller things before He sets upon your shoulders any bigger thing. And I caution you, should a "bigger thing" seem to appear out of nowhere, beware.
2. If you were in a monastery, your "job" would be to pray the Divine Office. I suggest to you that this is where you might begin in your current circuмstances. You say you feel the need to pray almost constantly, but feel you are not necessarily doing more than forming the words. The Divine Office would regulate your prayer life, train your body and mind to submit to Christ's yoke, and would bathe your soul in the most invigorating spiritual spring.
3. Should you object that it's too hard to pray the Breviary when one is in the world, because of time constraints and demands, etc, etc., I would only give you myself as an example. I'm a worldling who has prayed it since 1995. I've had tremendous responsibilities in the professional world, which ate up my time like rats eat cheese, yet I made the time for the Breviary, and it was never a burden. In fact, now that I am retired, now that I have all my time to myself, now I find the Breviary a grind!!! Absolutely a temptation!!!
I'm not in the habit of regurgitating my own posts, but I'm going to spit one up here, because it has long been my ardent desire to inspire other people to take up the Breviary. It can be taken up by many, many more than are willing. It's lying on the battlefield, fallen and un-picked up, is a grave, grave loss to the Church, and to the fight.
If you simply devote your life to the Mass, the Office, and the Rosary, you will accomplish many things, but above all, I pray for you that you will accomplish God's holy will.
Pax et Bonum!
Here's my spit up:
There is a mortification - hard, terrible, perfect, and indubitably efficacious - simple - powerful against the devil........
and no one is interested in doing it.
Pray the Divine Office.
Faithfully.
Diligently.
In absolute dryness and aridity and weariness of spirit.
Alone, with no monastic companions to bolster up your sagging interest.
Alone, forced to revive yourself and whip your motivation up the steep incline.
God must be praised. God is not getting His praise. Only His praise, rising up from the earth, can defeat the enemy.
What were monasteries but places of conscription? Galleys, where those pressed into Divine Service took the Eternal King's shilling. War ships. Armies in battle array, upon which, and upon no other, arose Christendom.
Put away the hairshirts and chains and cold showers of the body, if you are not first girding and pricking and chaining your mind and your dainty fancies.
Pray the Divine Office, perseveringly. Allow yourself to become a drafthorse of God.
divinumofficium.com