well matthew, see, that is the thing, you think you know me, and you don't; all you nailed on the head is your own preconceived notions, you're of zero help to me right now and are working on my last nerve and I would prefer if ya just left me alone now.
An i don't live in Az Marl.. but ty for the offer, my diocese does have one parish in town that does offer a latin an like a gregorian something or other kind of mass that i noticed.
why would a diocese though have a latin or traditional mass and have some kind of hybrid thing going on, at that point it isn't a traditional mass if they are mixing things together, and I have even witnessed one priest against performing a latin mass, yet was more than eager to celebrate black history month with baptist style gospel music, and hold a smphony in the church because of its' acustic features, an then welcome a brief performance in the church for those of Chinese nationaly to feature one of those parade like dragons for the Chinese new year .. but for some reason he drew the line at a latin or traditional mass..... things that like drive me up the wall. and i dont get it. The Church isn't one to create rules to respect ones private boundaries, where as in personal relationships be it a friendship or what ever, work, etc, there are boundaries, if you have had enough of a situation at work, or a person ,, one can go okay look I cant take it anymore and one of us needs to back off so I am going this way, and don't follow me, I'll check things out when im ready an come back when I feel like I am ready. An in that circuмstance it is fine, no one goes okay well when you come back, there will be reprocussions and you will need to do this and this and this for us to be square. I use to enjoy adoration , but im burnt out on that as well.... an haven't been in years.... least not where i use to go anyhow, i could always go some where else and i need to consider that, cause it isn't adoration itself i have a problem with it is the people at this one parish....
It's like the only real answer to being burnt out going to mass is oh well, keep going and hope things get better, or leave and take your chances. I feel like the obligation to go to mass is more of a threat than anything, and i don't feel like the church is set up to care if people actually enjoy going or not nor has any insight on being burnt out. A priest can take a sabatical or vacation from his duties but is still obligated at the very least to attend mass , but there is no break from an obligation and that just feels like I am being forced into something.
Some days at mass are better than others....