It's hard, but I know. Unfortunately, Advent and Christmas time is really hard and depressing for me.
Hi Bataar,
I think it is a very difficult time of year for many, many people. You are not alone in that. I know I am missing friends and family that have died or can't meet up with for various reasons. Some family don't want to see me and my family because we didn't get the Covidvax or flu shot. We haven't seen them in over 5 years. We used to see them around the holidays but not anymore.
Did you try any of the good suggestions to meet people? Do you still have dogs? Maybe you can talk to someone at the dog park. Or find some winter hobbies when you can't go fishing.
Bataar, does that name come from Tarbosaurus Bataar?

Prayers