Thank you all for your prayers. Thank you Ladislaus and Josef for your thoughts. I was supposed to lose the use of my throat muscles and die from food pneumonia, Alas they are fine so it looks like I will have to wait a little longer to die now. As one would expect I dwell on what my death will be like, something that one doesn’t do when normal. What happens at that moment. I think about the relatives and friends who have gone before me, they already know what happens. I name most of them when I say my rosary. I pray the seven sorrows of Our Lady while getting to sleep at night. My final wish is that God will forgive me my sins and that heaven to me would be to be joined with my wife Liz and all my family and friends forever with God, Our Lady and saints in heaven. I hope that Jesus, who, when He died, and was joined with His foster dad Joseph, the same name as my dad, and then His mother Our Lady, will do the same for us. I worry about Purgatory, do we all as sinners have to go there. Recently a niece played videos of my childhood, then with me, Liz and my own children visiting my mom and dad in the country and then my mom’s 80th and 90th birthday nearly 30 years ago. How sad it was to see them alive and happy and then more so that so many in the film are long gone now. As one who can see the infinite ability of God in his creation, I do know there is no limit to the happiness He has in store for those who get to heaven. God help us all.