For those who would gain any benefit (or a chuckle) from this, here follows a questionnaire I recently filled regarding careers. Note: this questionnaire had to be filled in the context of a secularist platform and it necessarily entailed a brutal sort of honesty.
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Tell us about your chosen career path. Where do you work? Would you consider this your dream job? Why?I do not think the conglomerate of duties that enable me to survive can be considered as a “career.” I work as a journeyman in various construction sites. This is hardly my “dream job.” Those years wherein I had endeavored to attain to a baccalaureate in literary studies have come to naught. Worse still, they are now a distant memory to which I feel an invincible indifference.
How did you get to where you are now? What mistakes have you made? What would you do differently if you could go back?The reason why my baccalaureate is little more than a piece of paper is because I refused to negotiate with the practicalities and logistics of real life. I became a demiurge of an ideal world wherein I inhabited amidst books and icons. Apparently, I had mistook this realm for the real world. Had I the opportunity to go back, I would have listened and put into practice a commencement speech delivered by David Foster Wallace wherein the now famous saying “This is water” is cited. I should have planned more carefully and assiduously, and should have been prudent and provident enough to make proper associations and fiduciary relationships that would have led to career opportunities.
What is the best thing about your job? What is the worst?The best thing about my job is that it has definitely evicted me from the literary microcosm that I had fabricated and ornamented with such care throughout my years in academia. It has compelled me to be more connected to people and to learn about the vast and subtle differences that exist in the stratified socioeconomic construct that now exists in the American Republic.
What would you like to achieve in 10 years? Have your goals changed since the beginning of your career?I must be honest. This question nauseates and terrifies me. In ten years I would not like to be around. My youthful idealism has been so crushed that I have arrived at the point wherein that for which I yearn is survival and some degree of contentment. If I am still around, I would like to conquer the practical nihilism that presently entraps me. I would like to have mastered Latin, learned German, to have fallen in love, &c. Essentially, my goal is to be functional and useful: if not for myself, then for others: and this is the most saddening aspect of my ridiculous predicament.
If someone with your personality type was just about to start looking for their first job, what advice would you give them?I would advise such a person to strive for a balance between ideals and realities; to be more open-minded and affable; to build authentic and lasting connections both personally and professionally; to negotiate with the real world, but not become merchandise in the process; to strive for self-knowledge and build goals based thereupon.
Looking back at your career, what do you regret most? What makes you feel happy?That which I regret most is the fact that I have been reduced to a practical nihilism. The residue of the literary microcosm of which I wrote above and the exigencies of circuмstance have made me into an abortion, one caught between two worlds: one dead and one powerless to come alive. That which makes me happy is the fact that I can delay the legitimate consequences of the aforementioned nihilism by reminding myself that I am useful and functional: at least I can readily create the illusion thereof as a construction worker.
In your opinion, which traits of your personality help you the most? Which ones are the most problematic?The proclivity for emotive and cognitive excess is what both helps and hinders me the most. The same passion that may render the most daunting of academic tasks into a thing of delight and wonder is the same psychodynamic excess that can make the smallest of undesirable details of the logistics of the real world into an insurmountable bastion that paralyzes me.
If there was one thing you could change about your personality, what would that be?The one thing I would change about my personality is the person whom it compasses round about: at once trapped in claustrophobic mania and yet ecstasiated in an excess of eleutheromania. I would, however, wish to be more practical and disciplined.
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The last question could only have an adequate answer in the context of the Christian interior life: "to put off, according to former conversation, the old man, who is corrupted according to the desire of error" (Eph. iv. 22) and "put on the new man, who according to God is created in justice and holiness of truth" (ibid. 24). It is the ultimate fruit of mortification: "And I live, now not I; but Christ liveth in me" (Gal. ii. 20).