There is nothing anyone can do unless you yourself want to save your soul. So stop blaming others and make up your own mind.
Do you want to save your soul ?
If yes, pull up your socks and get on with it.
I not, you'll be hating and frothing for the rest of eternity... in the company of all those who made the same choice as you.
Did you actually read this thread, or the question list I posted?
I cant go back because a gang of pharisees hijacked the chapel and prevent me from access to it.
If none of them read cathinfo, they would remember me as the timid spiritual nice person eccentric who was obsessed with penance and solitude and vigils and rubbish like this.
I went back and they lobbied the superior saying people with disabilities should not be allowed in the chapel.
Before this they were saying lots of rubbish lying allegations to the superior.
They have him wrapped around their baby finger. He is eating out of their hand. They control the purse.
I will be banned for expediency.
I never spoke like this until I was banned. Everyone knows that.
I was full of charity, they spit on me for it. I was committed to prayer, they spit on me for it.
I was full of empathy for people, they spit on me for it. I did all they asked, they spit on me for it.
I done many pious things, I was spit on for them all.
No one recognized my pain. They did not dignify me with the right to not suffer.
They put unfair conditions on me and pushed me out on the quiet and covered it up because I was not a loyalist.
All I was interested in was saying the maximum amount of prayers.
I since turned to the dark side. For reasons that each time I reached out in friendship to them they spit on me.
WELL now it is time for me to spit on your society, and on your whole vain religion.
My experience of life has been poisoned enough with your contempt of my dignity