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What are you going to do to save my soul, if I am worth saving that is.
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Did you actually read this thread, or the question list I posted?
I cant go back because a gang of pharisees hijacked the chapel and prevent me from access to it.
If none of them read cathinfo, they would remember me as the timid spiritual nice person eccentric who was obsessed with penance and solitude and vigils and rubbish like this.
I went back and they lobbied the superior saying people with disabilities should not be allowed in the chapel.
Before this they were saying lots of rubbish lying allegations to the superior.
They have him wrapped around their baby finger. He is eating out of their hand. They control the purse.
I will be banned for expediency.
I never spoke like this until I was banned. Everyone knows that.
I was full of charity, they spit on me for it. I was committed to prayer, they spit on me for it.
I was full of empathy for people, they spit on me for it. I did all they asked, they spit on me for it.
I done many pious things, I was spit on for them all.
No one recognized my pain. They did not dignify me with the right to not suffer.
They put unfair conditions on me and pushed me out on the quiet and covered it up because I was not a loyalist.
All I was interested in was saying the maximum amount of prayers.
I since turned to the dark side. For reasons that each time I reached out in friendship to them they spit on me.
WELL now it is time for me to spit on your society, and on your whole vain religion.
My experience of life has been poisoned enough with your contempt of my dignity

It is the only chapel in travel distance, i cant go novus ordo, and the bible says eucharist and sacraments or else no heaven.
Yet BIGOTS lobby the superior if i go to church. They deserve to be exposed. They are in denial and there is a cover up.
Dont try shift the blame onto me. If I was left unmolested by these BIGOTS I would be going to church regular.
But they get in my way so I entertain the dark side and the delusions of catholicism wore off.
The blindfold of ideology has come off. I am free now.
Everytime I reached out to them they spit on me. I will contempt their whole religion in return.

You are denying the facts on the ground.
If I go back they pressurize mr griego to ban me, and he will, if he hasent already.
They have him seduced. There are too many liars and I am outnumbered by bigots.
I will never be accepted there because they are advesarial by nature and they bite people as a hobby.
They live for the conflict with other catholics. They know my diagnosis is stigma and it is dishonorable to them.
They use it as a vulnerability. The way it is in that sspx is attack or be attacked.
They are vipers. One does not survive in there unless they are likewise a viper.
That is why they deserve contempt. In a way it helps me fit in.
My excessive inferiority complex humility from my previous piety was the door they used to abuse me with impuntiy.
I never defended myself before. That was my flaw. I should have been a wolf and manipulator and lobbiest and politician.
I should have worked the crowd using psychological manipulation tactics to ensure the security of my place at the chapel.
I didnt bother. I prayed and did penances. Look where it got me. Thrown out of my own religion permanently.
Denied the right to go back to it. So dont tell me the ball is in my court. Dont tell me to pray or repent.
It was those very things that got me expelled in the first place by people who did neither.

What makes you think I want a "Confession". Why does he have a right to hear my secrets.
He is fallible and human and not superior to me. You are projecting your own confession habit onto me.
It is not the solution to everything. Confession alone once every few months is not enough to sustain a persons faith.
They need a church to go to, sermons, eucharist, other sacraments, community.
You wont admit that I am polarized against the religion because of the treatment I got.
You claim I lack knowledge on the religion. But I used to be one of you.
I know that in your theology I dont even need confession, I can be saved by an act of contrition.
But you are not being realistic. Why should I be contrite for my infractions of catholic laws.
Catholics dont even follow their own laws. Why should I go back to humiliation and grovelling a god while other stone cold people use that very humility to persecute me. It wont work in real life.
I wont apologize anymore for being human. I am an animal whose only true duty is to his genes.
I have another philosophy now. I wont be guilt tripped into a rabbit hole of abstractions and delusions because it leaves me defencelesss against the relentless attacks of the mob in the chapel.
Why dont you address these phariseeical hypocrites who stole the chapel.

You are pathologizing my dissent from catholic ideology and imposing a punishment of humiliating myself before an authority figure of that church. If I dont submit to said authority figure, your argument implies that my complaints are false. You distilled nothing from my posts other than I should go to confession. I should just get back in line, hush up, and suffer in silence. And if the next chapel I go to gets taken from me, do the same... and the next, and the next, and on and on, a wandering drifting christian, struggling in vain against impossible odds to practice a religion that consistently slams doors in his face. Yet you claim your god is truth, so I ought to admit the truth, and the truth is that this church disowned me and I am a scapegoat orphan from an abusive community, and it is the same in all valid churches, the same atmosphere exists there. When will the persecution end. Why must I suffer in silence. That is ridiculous.
This far no further is what I should say. They stole my local chapel. That is intolerable.
The same mice will infest other chapels and steal them also. This far no further.
I have a right to go and what they wrongfully do is impose a de facto excommunication on me through the hecklers veto.
No one should let them away with it. But then again no one takes my side because Im worthless because of a diagnosis and people like me carry stigma in society therefore the chapel gets a bad image if Im there. So no one thinks its profitable for their society if I go there. Psychiatry is more powerful than god. Bigotry destroys and corrupts.
Instead of pathologizing my dissent from the supposed impression that all is perfect in paradise, which no one should believe, and which everyone should doubt because they know what they themselves and sspx parishes are prone to,
you should pathologize the sspx with your same spiritual puritanism and not expect victims to suffer in silence, because your policy of pray and do nothing practical, and tell the victims to hush and confess, covers up the problems in the church and it is a cowardly approach that ignores festering problems and leads to even more victims and a trail of destruction.