No, you just make it sound like what was done is over and done. You won't even admit to any wrongdoing, so why do you care about forgiveness in this case?
FORGIVENESS - The taking back into favour of one by whom we have been slighted, disobeyed, robbed, or in any way injured. Forgiveness is a necessary fruit of Christian charity, and if the offender has expressed sorrow or otherwise tried to make amends is due in justice. But if one is in the position of having the right to inflict punishment (e.g., as a parent), forgiveness does not necessarily involve the remission of punishment.
What does justice require of the offender? Does he just sit and wait for the forgiveness while saying he didn't do anything wrong? You assume we are dealing with men of good will, which is a mistake, in my opinion.
What more do you really want from the clergy who have evidently destroyed your life?
You know, we used to think maybe one of the people who did deliberate harm to our family would walk over from the school or rectory and say they were sorry. or see how were getting along-we'd have been on all fours biting the carpet with dog-like gratitude. After a while, we had to admit it just was not going to happen, and mere people were not the answer.
You are endlessly appealing to
creatures -apparently no less than every single soul will satisfy- to end your personal agony. Appeal instead to the Holy Face of Jesus Christ. Beg Our Lord to forgive them for you, instead of begging us to admit how bad your enemies are. They are by no means as bad as you
feel they are.
If you have to drive by St. Clare's to get to work or the store (or whatever you do regularly) make certain that you change your route.
Whatever triggers your misery and stress, especially visually, get rid of it. Don't look at it, and don't spend time with people who remind you of St. Clare's, even if they are good friends.
You need to get rid of all the "triggers" for awhile so you can get your life back on track.
:chef: I have been on a total cookie, loaf and treat baking marathon for days on end with the laptop handy :chef: so you should listen to me! :chef: