It was the summer of 69, and great change was going on inside a church I knew little about. I was an all American boy, high school football player, academic champ. But even though I was so isolated from the world in my all boys episcopal high school, I was very aware of the change... My Catholic friends mostly LOVED the heresy, but some hated it. I knew something was up in Rome, for my episcopal church stopped railing about the Catholic Bishop monthly in their bulletin. Something was up
So I went to the local parish to see if they got better, or what. People still knelt at the rail back then, and girly girls weren't touching every chalice and paten in sight. At first, I liked it. At the Easter Vigil of 1970 I was welcomed into the One True Faith.
Slowly, but surely, I found myself falling head first into piles of Chesterton, Belloc, and Tolkein. I bought a catechism and missal. I endured the heresy for 13 more years. Then girls got on the altar. What was happening? What was going on inside my church? Isn't this why I left the Episcopals? Did I isolate myself from my disapproving family and friends for nothing?
I stopped going to mass. I started staying home and reading my bible. One day I was on my way to lunch. I was an engineer. I saw a catholic church had lunch time mass, so I headed in.
It was a world from what I remembered. People were quiet, reverent, and even VEILING. I crossed myself fifteen times and jumped into the confessional. Now was the dawn of the new age: I could forget my former transgressions through the flowing openness of an anonymous confessional. I went on to mass. I wept through the whole thing, it was so beautiful. The latin, BOY servers, the reverence of all involved. I was changed
I decided God had a different plan for me. He didn't want me to engineer ways to build: He wanted me to engineer ways to lead souls to salvation. I visited that same priest from confession, and I said "Father, I want to be a fisher of men"
I'm now in my forties. This year I will be made a holy priest in the fssp. I hope to engineer the Salvation of Souls!