I love Jesus so much and I know He is always with me. He has blessed me with many gifts and so I don’t like to complain, but I do have a very heavy cross that is sometimes too much to bear. I know many of you here have heavy ones too. 
Mine is raising my children Traditional Catholic, alone. My husband lost the Faith many years ago, and on a daily basis he limits my abilities to raise them right and good. I struggle every single day to attempt at order, only to continue living in disorder. It is truly excruciating. To top it off, my husband doesn’t like me, when he isn’t ignoring me, he is belittling me. I still love him, so it wounds me deeply. Going on 20 years now of novenas, prayers, sacrifices, Masses and more. I’m so tired and worn. 
Please pray for us both I am not enduring it well and have faults of my own I am trying to overcome. 

So what is your heavy cross? 
I can pray for you all, and hopefully you can pray for me. We can all pray for each other. 

It use to be rejection - I have always been rejected by people , couldn't make friends . 


I've since learned I'm on the spectrum, and to be honest , it's a relief knowing this , as I use to beat myself up over how useless I am 

Now, my cross is different . I'm living in constant fear that I'm not in a state of grace , that my last confession is in someway invalid or God has withdrawn grace from me. 

Mine is raising my child with severe autism, but I’m also fortunate because I love my heaviest cross.

I have several heavy crosses, especially since my husband lost his job and began going blind. I worry a lot about so much, especially with how insane society is today.  

My biggest worry though is dying without the Last Rites/Extreme Unction due to the state of the Church and trad priests not being nearby. But God made it happen for my mom to return to the Faith on her deathbed, so I hope it will be for me to receive the Last Rites in time too.

Stop worrying and start planning.!!!!  There are things you can do to supply for the lack of a priest on your deathbed.
 
From the Father Lasance Blessed Sacrament book
"Plenary Indulgence in Articulo Mortis
To all who ,with sincere love towards God, after confession and communion, made on any day they choose, say the following prayer:
 
O Lord my God, I now at this moment, readily and willingly accept at Thy hand whatever kind of death it  may please Thee to send me, with all its pains, penalties, and sorrows.
                                                                                               PiusX, March 9 1904 "
 
You can offer this same communion as your Viaticuм, ( no special prayer required, make your own intention)which means you won't derive any graces from your communion until you are on your deathbed.
 
I can't understand why everyone hasn't prepared for this possibility when holy Mother Church has given us so many remedies.

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The Lord will come like lightning, not like a snail.

I do worry that Jesus is here already in the clouds , the sky has not looked normal since the Amazon synod. I worry I have 666 on my forehead from my last mortal sin and I'm on my way to hell.

I know you think it's a crazy worry, but I honestly believe Jesus is here and we are in " the day of the lord

It is not that it’s a crazy worry, but all of what you say sounds like you’ve been reading Protestant interpretations of Scripture. Are you Catholic yet? Why do you despair while you still live? Jesus died for you and wills your Salvation. Always be sorry for your sins, pray for a priest and access to the Sacraments, and have FAITH He will send them to you. God is GOOD

I worry a lot about them trying to force the vaxx on us or rounding us up to put in camps.

Then your heaviest cross is that you read CI and  possibly other web sites, where people express a lot of fear which is contagious and depressing for the weak.