I think one struggle that comes in hand in hand with the whole trying to figure out things by ourselves, is that even if I have access to a traditional priest (whilst many of us don't), it's hard to ask for help. Basically, I don't know how to speak to a priest and I'm very shy. Deep in my heart I know that I'm lower than the priest so I feel very scared and unworthy to speak to the priest other than making confessions and so afraid of offending those holy men in any way. Not to mention that there's usually a whole queue of people with their family already waiting to speak with the priest. I think sometimes it got better when there was a chance to sit down and eat with the priest and he happened to sit nearby. I also don't know how the whole spiritual guidance thing is possible given that I don't get to go to Mass every week and sometimes even if I go I need run right after Mass. I remember when I finally asked my priest about that, he basically told me to do the basics and ask him any questions if I have them. I actually don't know what questions to ask. I guess that's the best I could get so far.