Vanity of vanities, said Ecclesiastes vanity of vanities, and all is vanity.

I feel like everything is a chore and ultimately pointless. What can I do but persist in suffering? Can I only wait for death? Things I once enjoyed I quickly tire of.

The soul was created for God and shall find no lasting peace until is rests in Him.

"Sicut cervus desiderat ad fontes aquarum..."
"As the deer longs for running streams, so my soul longs for Thee, Oh my God!"

If you want true peace, learn to accept the will of God in your life and accept all that happens to you as allowed by his wisdom and judgment.

I feel that I am simply waiting for things to happen (and they will eventually happen), but at the same time there is no guarantee that God will give me the things that 'I want'. For example, if I want a wife and children, it may or may not be God's will, how can I cope with this? The only guarantee I know is that God wants me to be saved (though I may not be saved because of my own will and sin), but everything else I cannot be sure. How can I rest in God? Knowing that everything that happens God allows to happen but that doesn't mean I always like it/enjoy it/or find it easy to accept, but how can I know if God willed something but I made the wrong choice by my own will?

Vanity of vanities, said Ecclesiastes vanity of vanities, and all is vanity.

I feel like everything is a chore and ultimately pointless. What can I do but persist in suffering? Can I only wait for death? Things I once enjoyed I quickly tire of.

There were two homilies I immediately thought of when I saw this post. The first, on the sources of sadness. The second, on the blessing of work.

Homily - The sources of sadness and joy

On the Blessing of Work (For Septuagesima)

Find work. Missionary work, go volunteering in NC helping victims of Helene, volunteer at a charity, something, anything.

The Imitation of Christ

CHAPTER I
Of the imitation of Christ, and of contempt of the world and all its vanities

He that followeth me shall not walk in darkness,(1) saith the Lord. These are the words of Christ; and they teach us how far we must imitate His life and character, if we seek true illumination, and deliverance from all blindness of heart. Let it be our most earnest study, therefore, to dwell upon the life of Jesus Christ.

2. His teaching surpasseth all teaching of holy men, and such as have His Spirit find therein the hidden manna.(2) But there are many who, though they frequently hear the Gospel, yet feel but little longing after it, because they have not the mind of Christ. He, therefore, that will fully and with true wisdom understand the words of Christ, let him strive to conform his whole life to that mind of Christ.
3. What doth it profit thee to enter into deep discussion concerning the Holy Trinity, if thou lack humility, and be thus displeasing to the Trinity? For verily it is not deep words that make a man holy and upright; it is a good life which maketh a man dear to God. I had rather feel contrition than be skilful in the definition thereof. If thou knewest the whole Bible, and the sayings of all the philosophers, what should all this profit thee without the love and grace of God? Vanity of vanities, all is vanity, save to love God, and Him only to serve. That is the highest wisdom, to cast the world behind us, and to reach forward to the heavenly kingdom.

4. It is vanity then to seek after, and to trust in, the riches that shall perish. It is vanity, too, to covet honours, and to lift up ourselves on high. It is vanity to follow the desires of the flesh and be led by them, for this shall bring misery at the last. It is vanity to desire a long life, and to have little care for a good life. It is vanity to take thought only for the life which now is, and not to look forward to the things which shall be hereafter. It is vanity to love that which quickly passeth away, and not to hasten where eternal joy abideth.

5. Be ofttimes mindful of the saying,(3) The eye is not satisfied with seeing, nor the ear with hearing. Strive, therefore, to turn away thy heart from the love of the things that are seen, and to set it upon the things that are not seen. For they who follow after their own fleshly lusts, defile the conscience, and destroy the grace of God.