Please continue to keep me in your prayers.

I miss my wife and children very much.

I am in a very psychologically debilitating situation. I keep falling from the faith because of my desire to be back with my family and I am hardly able to preserve my faith from the constant attacks on it.

I feel wracked with guilt because I feel that I keep betraying God after he has guided me to the truth.

I have been praying for you daily. Please go to Holy Hour/Adoration if you can. A lot of times when I'm weary; in going to Adoration I can just kneel and be entirely at peace knowing He is right there with me. You know He desires you so much, do not give up, no matter what. This may be boilerplate or simplistic but this is what you need to hear and do.