Don't even think about it until you are ready for a courtship-to-marriage scenario that's objectively a possibility.
I know rationally this is the best option but I have been emotional lately and attacked very bad thoughts, both in despair and depression.
I really do love this girl and would be very upset if she forgot about me or found someone else, yet I know there isn't much I can actually do in this situation. This is very frustrating because as a man I like to feel in control or have a guarantee. If she really likes me she would wait to see me again wouldn't she?
I also don't to cause scandal by going near the indult (they don't have valid orders) or seeing a girl for a relationship when I'm not financially ready.
Frankly I'm worried this girl will go to hell when she died because the indult has no valid orders, meaning her confessions are not absolved, her communions aren't real, and her mass is but an imitation. I want to help her save her soul.