hello,
I have a question...I am 24 years old and I'm not from a trad family at all. I don't have a job but I am offered plenty of times when I can make money (God has blessed me like you can't even believe...keeping me from the actual 'woman workforce'). For one, I babysit for a protestant family, work at a bazaar, take care of my grandfather (my aunt insists to pay me...even though I would rather hang out with him all day than pretty much anyone else I know), taking care of people's animals/farms, I also substitute teach at the N.O. school where my mom is secretary (this is rare, maybe 2-3 times per month for $50 a day). My question is : If I am teaching at the school am I (in some ways) 'accepting the N.O.'? I wonder, because I have a good feeling when I am with the kids. I pray God to help me give Him glory when I speak. Everyday I am there I teach the students (all different grades) about different saints and about the Eucharist and crushing heresies/satan. For the most part, they respond REALLY WELL to what I say. Everytime I go back they say "tell us more of the saints! please!' they just love it. I want to teach them all of the lessons that I didn't learn at catholic school...but how can I teach them the beauty of the Holy Eucharist if I believe the N.O. to be damaging to the faith...and even invalid? I cannot say: "come children......2.5 hours to Danbury CT to see what I am going all crazy over (I am very passionate/giddy when I talk of Our Lord in the Blessed Sacrament....i can't help this!!)"
please...my conscience doesn't feel bad (except when I listen to some of the conversations a few of the teachers have among themselves (which =much scandal/disgusting things)
I want to tell you that I am not 'out working' all the time. These jobs are just '2 days in june' or '3 days in july'...nothing permanent. I also take care of my brother's six children that I live with. I am their 'other moma' haha. The little bit money that I make outside the home just goes to help out the twelve of us who live here--with oil, propane, food, etc. I just wonder if I am sinning with the catholic school. It doesn't seem to me so, but I would appreciate what anyone has to tell me.
~laura