He says that he wishes that they would bind under pain of sin because he knows that would basically solve his problem. Apparently he has asked a couple times if he could take a vow of obedience (so that he wouldn't worry about the repercussion for not following his own conscience) but they told him not to.
But that's the root of the problem: He is trying to run the show. No matter what he says or even thinks he's doing, he is NOT actually listening. It's like he's trying to be the 4 star general and he isn't even a buck-private.
Don't be fooled, the root of this is fear. He's afraid to let God be in charge and he's afraid to be the ignorant peon, because maybe this, maybe that, maybe the other thing, etc., etc. etc. ad nauseum. It's all a lie so that he can be in charge.
This is addressed directly to him (best I can do without being face to face):
You need to shut up and quit listening to your own opinion because your opinion is ABSOLUTELY WORTHLESS!!!!
You are nothing but SLIME before God and can do ABSOLUTELY NOTHING FOR YOURSELF!!!
SO QUIT AGONIZING OVER EVERY DAMN LITTLE THING THAT ENTERS YOUR HEAD.
DO YOU REALLY THINK THAT YOU'RE SO SPECIAL THAT GOD NEEDS YOU TO DO HIS JOB?
YOU'RE NOT.
HE'S NOT OUT TO GET YOU, TO FIND SOME LITTLE THING THAT HE CAN HOLD AGAINST YOU, HE WANTS TO SAVE YOU, SO SIT YOUR STUPID BUTT DOWN, AND ACTUALLY LISTEN TO GOD INSTEAD OF YOURSELF FOR A CHANGE. BE CONTENT TO BE STUPID BEFORE GOD BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT GOING TO IMPRESS HIM.
AND WHEN YOU GO TO CONFESSION AND THE PRIEST SAYS: "Ego te absolvo...", ACTUALLY ACCEPT THAT YOUR SINS ARE FORGIVEN, NO MATTER WHAT YOU FEEL OR THINK.