thanks. you are one of the few people i have ever "met" who actually offers to help someone. I gave up asking people for help a long time ago, regardless of what kind it is. Most people seem to live for self only (including me, unfortunately :-X). But I do try to think of someone besides myself every so often. Some people.. but I guess i am committing another sin here (?) and confessing it once again to someone who is not a priest..
I am particularly focused on how you say you were miserable those 2+ yrs when you couldn't go to traditional Mass. Did your parents give you that hard a time?! What was their rationale for not being open to the tradtional mass?
you say you've never felt bad after confession. But did you go to NO priests 4 confession? If not, then... I get it. I haven't been to a trad priest for confession in yrs, but the last time i did was a good experience. I wasn't doing so well then, so i complained to him about this and that, and he didn't get all irritated like some would. He actually seemed to care.
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I wish I could do more for you than just offer little tid-bits of random advice... But, I am glad to offer what bit of comfort I can!
I don't think you commit a sin by telling someone else your faults besides a priest. Yes, only a priest can forgive you. Yet, God gives us friends and family members to help guide us to heaven. Try not to be too scrupulous... :)
As for your question about the two years when I was a still a minor and not able to attend the traditional Mass... Yes, my parents did give me a hard time, and almost all of my other friends and family members also. It was a great struggle, and it was only through the grace of God that I managed to persevere in my resolution to remain firm about the traditional Catholic Faith and do all that I could once I was an adult to make it to the True Mass. My parents considered the traditional Mass groups as being outside of the Church and worse than being a protestant or a Jєω... It was tough...
I won't say that I never felt bad after confession... I honestly don't remember much about the novus ordo Confessions though. I tried to block most of it out of my mind, and it has been several years now since I have been a traditional Catholic exclusively. I do remember my First Confession though. It horrified me! I confessed that I had been fussing, and the priest asked me to explain. But, what six year old is able to do that? So, he walked straight out of the Confessional and asked my mother what "fussing" meant. I was so taken aback that I was scared to death to go to Confession for SO LONG after that... In fact, I think that only after starting to go to traditional Catholic priests did I finally get over that fear of the Confessional.
I also remember once that a novus ordo priest told me that my sins were not really sins, and I did not know how to react to that...
How far away is the closest good chapel from you? At any rate, please know that you shall be in my prayers. Please remember me in yours also! And happy Easter!!! ;D