Anonymous said:
“Yet I find myself losing faith in it. I am unable to comprehend the manifold issues of the post-conciliar era in a rational manner.”
This is the essence of your problem:
You are demanding a logical/rational solution/explanation, whereas you should humbly accept the concept of mystery.
You need to make yourself accept that God and His Church are not all reducible to logical explanation.
Just as faith transcends reason and logical explanation (because the object of faith exceeds them), so too must we accept the limits of intellect.
Ultimately, this is a test, and those who pass it only do so by grace. So you need to pray for the ability to persevere in the humble acceptance of mystery.
On a side note, I once saw a blasphemous movie in the ‘90’s called the Prophecy, in which the devil comes up to the heroine of the movie, and says to him, “Think what would happen if one was tested, and didn’t understand.”
Those living in these times are all being sorely tested, but Our Lord said, “Unless you are like one of these children...”. In other words, make your faith simple, and you have a better chance of perseverance.
And if you need a boost from time to time, thank God for those moments in your life where, by a signal grace, you became certain He was guiding you. If you were not wrong then (and you were not convinced you were right because of reason or logic!), then that should encourage you in trusting where you have ended up today:
Catholic.