I live on the west coast of the US, and will probably lose my apartment within a few months since I am not making enough money in my current job.
It is difficult out there but what you can't do is fall into despair.
I could probably get a better job if I really applied myself, but I really don't want to get into corporate america as I just can't handle the environment working around pagans and a lot of times its an occasion of sin. I also firmly believe we could be close to the end and I want more time to pray 15 decades every day. This usually takes me 2-2.5 hours.
Welcome to the real world. I find this attitude rather cowardly in my honest opinion. You said you could "probably get a better job..." Then I would suggest doing JUST THAT. I am sorry but for most people living among non-Catholics either in the work environment or in their neighborhoods is the norm. We must be the "light of the world" and bring Christ to the world. So since you are not applying yourself don't expect the "dream job" to pop into your lap. Christ wants you to APPLY whatever gifts he has given you to their most. I am not saying it is going to be easy but at least you must try.
Forget about whether we are "close to the end." Your daily duties are to find a job to support yourself or to find reasonable living arrangements. So because you want more time to pray the rosary (a good thing in itself), you are not going to work hard to find a job? I don't quite get the logic. Praying is good - in fact it is the highest action a human can do - but NOT if it is going to lead you away from taking care of your material needs. Don't you see the contradiction?
Im in my early twenties (male) and graduated college a few years ago. But that was before I converted, I doubt I could put up with college now considring the way most women dress and the outright blasphemies/heresies of the marxist professors. I've denounced my vatican 2 family as heretics and I'm not really speaking to them at all, and don't plan to unless they fully denounce the V2 sect as evil. I only have a couple friends I talk to right now. I wanted to post to see if anybody needed a roomate or knew of a potential ideal living situation, like a farmhand or knew of a small business that needed help. Thank you.
I am not so sure denouncing your parents like that was the CATHOLIC thing to do. I don't know the circuмstances of your relationship to your family but you cannot go around denouncing your family and possibly estranging yourself from them. We still have natural ties to our family that we must try to foster. Your condition of not talking to your family unless they "denounce the V2 sect as evil" sounds to me to be incredibly selfish. So then how will you bring them to a knowledge of the Crisis? I am afraid this sounds like the overzealous attitude that new converts often have. It's the attitude I had to a certain degree. All it will do is harden them. Temper your zeal.
You can't live in a hole avoiding the world unless you are somehow called to be a hermit which I highly doubt. The spirit of the world is evil and we must avoid it but most of us are meant to LIVE in the world and bring Christ to this pagan world you so readily denounce.
There is nothing courageous in the stand you are taking based upon what I have read.
I hate to be harsh, but this Guest said what needed to be said.
To the OP:
Do your duty of state, and don't worry about the End of the World. Whether you die during the Great Chastisement, in the gulag of the Antichrist, or in a car accident next week, you will be judged by God on how you fulfilled your duties of state.
I can't say that you're the only one that's said something like this. You're about the 100th (at least!).
Maybe all these melancholic "afraid to get knee-deep in the world" and/or "I realize the dangers and difficulties of marriage ALL TOO WELL, so I dare not try." are examples of what vocations to the Religious Life used to sound like, only today it's difficult to find a good place to fulfill such a vocation -- it's hard to experience the places that do exist, etc.A saint did opine once that 1/3 of mankind has an objective calling to the priesthood or religious life.
P.S. You REALLY NEED TO GET OUT OF CALIFORNIA. It has about the highest cost of living in America; probably one of the highest in the industrialized world. Unless you DO plan on making good money in corporate America, you would do better to find a place with a more "average" American cost of living. A state where $85,000 will buy you a decent, move in-ready (NOT a fixer upper) -- 3 bedroom house, about 1400 - 1800 sf, with a normal backyard.