I now have two new Roman Missals, one from Baronius Press and The New Roman Missal by Father Lasance which I will never use again for there are no Traditional Roman Catholic Church's near me. The Abbey was my last hope. I will sell the two missals for half what I paid for them.
Honestly you don't sound like you're under 30.
Nevertheless, your whining, drama, and defeatism would be more expected coming from a 25 year old.
So you're giving up on the Tridentine Mass. Where does the giving up stop? Are you giving up on pleasing God? your soul? Eternal salvation?
God commanded us to worship Him *as He desires to be worshipped*. Not just "however we feel like it". Jesus Christ, the Second Person of the Most Holy Trinity, founded a Church and a religion to worship God the way HE wants to be worshipped.
Vatican II tried to destroy that Faith, that Church, and that worship by making the Catholic Church protestant. We can't approve of that, or participate in that, without offending God. So that leaves TRADITIONAL CATHOLICISM -- doing our utmost best to find a Tridentine Mass to A) please and worship God and B) stay in the State of Grace and C) ultimately to save our souls.
You sound like you're in the last 1/3 of your life -- you might want to be careful about throwing out God's lifeline of salvation -- Mass and the sacraments.
How do the Boomers say it? You need to man up, pull yourself up by your bootstraps, etc. Can't you move? Travel? There are Tridentine Masses all over the USA -- which are nothing like the Indult abominations you have described.
If you're alive, there SHOULD be hope. Does your wife rule you and your household? That's unfortunate. But even if so, couldn't you do something? Maybe just tell her "we're moving, and that's it". What's the worst that could happen? Would she really divorce you? Aren't you retired and your kids grown anyhow? At all costs, you really need to move somewhere where you could attend the Tridentine Mass, the true Mass, the Mass of All Time, at least occasionally.
And if your wife is NOT like that, great! That was a worst-case scenario. So it's just about your job then? Mere money? Pieces of green paper? What is that compared to your eternal soul? I know, I know -- those green pieces of paper mean food, housing, comfort, security, power, pleasure -- again I ask, what are those things compared to the ETERNAL DESTINY of your soul? Your soul is going to live forever whether you like it or not.
Of critical importance is HOW YOU WILL SPEND THAT ETERNITY.I will tell you this: if you "make it to the finish line", staying married to a dominating woman who refuses to let you move where the Tridentine Mass is offered,
it will be NO CONSOLATION for you in hell if you lose your soul. There will be no "bragging rights" that "At least I never got divorced". The devils won't "tip their hat" or give you any "props" or respect for the simple fact of having managed to avoid divorce. What I'm saying is,
the ONLY thing that matters is your soul's salvation. Not your wife's happiness, not your convenience, not your earthly happiness, and not what your friends/family/kids think of you.
If you're still here on earth, still alive, you should have SOME agency or choice about what you do, where you go, what your priorities are. YOU decide your priorities. YOU have Free Will, and will be judged by God accordingly.
I would humbly suggest, along with all the saints, that you live your life as if GOD ALONE MATTERS. Put God first, and you won't ever regret it.