First of all, I need to admit that I do suffer depression for a long time in my life, and I am guilty of my vice of being slothful. And then here's the thing every time I got someone encouraging me to do something, like try to earn more money, I don't have the motivation at all because I actually don't want anything more than what I have now. I came to the realization that I really have no goal or no expectation out of this life. I don't earn much but already live a very comfortable life with nothing I can complain about. I also don't have a family I need to support or any dependents. So I live as I live. There's nothing much I enjoy doing in this life, nothing that I find meaningful anymore. I do have little hobbies here and there but I also don't get motivated enough to invest a lot in them. I almost don't have any passion or desires for material things. I don't know what I want or should want other than going to Heaven. I don't know if it's normal or healthy at all that every time someone asks me what I want to get in this life I have no other answer but "to save my soul and save more souls" and I am just passive about everything else. For now I actually don't find it bad for me, but it seems like a lot of people I know in my life are bothered and worried by the way I do with my life when I'm still "so young and have a lot in front of me," to a point that I also become doubtful. But even if it's really a problem, I don't know how to possibly fix it. It feels like an old soul living in me and my heart is dead to the world.

And if you may, say a prayer for me, because I don't know what God wants me to do in this life.

You have a passion for saving souls? What a great gift. I would put effort into that- the rewards will be great.

"It feels like an old soul living in me and my heart is dead to the world."
Awesome!

You need to stay busy. I've been through very similar experiences, and I find myself in a cycle of detachment which leads to disinterestedness which leads to laziness, slothfulness, and lack of purpose. Then, to combat such things, I would willingly try to become interested in things like hobbies, which can easily lead to attachment to worldly things, then the cycle would repeat. One could spend much time in prayer, but as for me, I had a hard time staying focused for very long, and there is more to life than just verbal or mental prayer. There is action, which if done properly, is also a prayer.

I think you have an advantage that makes achieving perfection much easier, but yes there is a problem if you are not spending much time and effort on serving God. It seems you know and love Him already. Go serve Him. If you need an interest, consider how few make it to heaven, and what Jesus said about this topic. Be you perfect as your father in heaven is perfect. Make your goal in life to be perfect in every little (or big) thing: in prayer, in work, in every word and thought. It starts with the little stuff. Go into the world and help others, whether for free, or for pay. If you don't care about money, let them pay whatever they will, but be a good example to others as you work towards perfection. Perhaps the virtue others see in you will lead them to the faith and salvation. Maybe become a Brother or a similar "Familiar" living with and serving the clergy at a local priory.

"I don't earn much but already live a very comfortable life with nothing I can complain about." I think this should concern you, especially these days, though Catholic virtue could allow one to still consider themselves comfortable enough to not complain even while enduring daily trials and sufferings.

As for me, I am working for a local christian business owner, hopefully he will convert. I don't work every day, but the days I do work, it gives me beneficial human interaction, various trials and other ways I can use to work on my perfection, and it gives me motivation and the habit of doing things and keeping busy, so on the days I don't work, I can better focus on prayer, study, meditation, and making productive use of my time at home or wherever.

I just found this book I'm going to get, though I have already come to the realization of how few are saved. It is a really motivating topic. https://www.traditionalcatholicpublishing.com/on-the-fewness-of-the-saved.html

I have been thinking about you, OP, and I hope you are not in depression.  If you are, then it is not good you are so removed from life.  If this is the case, I encourage you to exercise outside and eat well.  

I have been thinking about you, OP, and I hope you are not in depression.  If you are, then it is not good you are so removed from life.  If this is the case, I encourage you to exercise outside and eat well. 

Thank you for thinking about me. I could be in depression, I don't know, I am usually not very emotional, so I don't get hype or too sad, just neutral and calm most of the time. And I could exercise outside, and I eat pretty well I guess, but it really doesn't change how I think or feel.

And if you may, say a prayer for me, because I don't know what God wants me to do in this life.

If you don't know what God wants you to do then:

"All whatsoever you do in word or in work, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ, giving thanks to God and the Father by him.

Whatsoever you do, do it from the heart, as to the Lord, and not to men:

Knowing that you shall receive of the Lord the reward of inheritance. Serve ye the Lord Christ."


Perhaps you should take a vacation, where you will be both closer to God, in a way, and in an environment of God serving busy-ness. Then, you may get some ideas of what to do with your life. A monastery or comes to mind as a good example for a vacation spot. Being around other people is a much more beneficial and rich experience than alone with worldly hobbies. Social interaction even indirectly is a source of motivation. 

It seems to me like you might not have any good Catholic friends? This is a huge struggle for many Catholics these days. We are social creatures no matter how much our introverted selves may try to deny it, and the devil does not want what is good for us. Man is meant to know things. Your detachment and dissatisfaction regarding worldly things show you may have a huge capacity for experience and knowledge that only God can fill, something most people don't seem to realize. Friendly interaction with others offers much more valuable experience compared to being engaged in hobbies by oneself. It won't fill the void only God can fill, but it is sufficient to get by. Much can be accomplished b friends working together: a perfect recipe against sloth. I have often thought how I would someday like to serve a catholic family since I won't ever marry. It would provide me with a way of serving God, and the social interaction would satisfy my needs for experiences. Perhaps someday it will happen, but for now I offer up my suffering from lack of friends. We are in a time of suffering, which has value through the merits of Jesus, who also suffered.