Dear all,
I hope you can understand where I'm coming from - I don't want to make excuses for sin and my past mistakes, because sin is sin and not being nice is just wrong.
I feel betrayed by my "catholic" upbringing. I feel through not being taught the faith properly my hope is heaven is slim.
I was brought up catholic in a Novus ordo church and school, I didn't know anything about vatican II or how the church changed as far as I was concerned the church as always been as it is.
My parents took me to mass every week and we even went on pilgrimages to places where saints lived. Only I wasn't really taught about mortal sin and how one can throw you into hell for eternity.
School and church life always talked about how we were all going to heaven, not one mention of sin/hell at school or at church.
I remember my dad once telling me that only really evil people go to hell (so I just thought the nαzιs were there)
I then went on to live a life of sin, although i know i did wrong, (not any excuse, I shouldn't of sinned) I just thought I wasn't evil enough to go to hell, and God was loving forgiving father who loves us all so much.
I only found out about the heresy that goes on in the NO church and I've gone traditional 2 years ago. However my years of lifestyle of sin- I can never make it up to God. I must have offended him so much, I to this day, still struggle with sin
I really feel for all the children being born into this world, who don't know any better, who trust their parents in their lifestyle and how they are offending God without truly realising.
Sorry, just wanted to rant to someone.