What are some titles of books, or names of priests or Saints do you suggest?

A Radiance in the Gulag
Nijole Sadunaite
1992, Franciscan University Press
With God in Russia
Fr. Walter J. Ciszek, S.J., with Daniel L. Flaherty, S.J.
1964, The America Press/McGraw-Hill
The Shadow of His Wings
Fr. Gereon Goldmann, OFM
2000, Ignatius Press (originally 1964, Franciscan Herald Press)
Christ in Dachau
Rev. John M. Lenz
1960, Roman Catholic Books

I wrote the above post.  It timed out before I could remove the repetitive section.

If we do not mean our prayers our second state can be worse than out first for God is not mocked.

Thank YOU - for the quote from St. Thomas More.

Remember that this life is known as the "Time of mercy". If God had given up on you, you wouldn't be alive anymore. 

There's a famous Latin phrase, "Dum spiro, spero". It translates, "While I breathe, I hope."

What keeps me going is the thought of seeing the wicked punished.

I am glad God is merciful to the weak sinners.  But I am delighted He is just and wrathful to the reprobates.

I've had a bellyful of their godless, atheistic BS over the years and I am fed up to the back teeth with it.

"Vengeance is mine sayeth the Lord".  But he doesn't sayeth I cannot delight in His wrath.

All I need now is a beeswax telescope.

I must tell you that I am fading, really bad. My RCIA class is killing me I have studied STA deeply for 5 years, I burned my COCC and bought Six Catholic Catechisms Anthology,  i stopped praying the Prayer of Immaculata, the Rosary and have forsaken my love to Mother Mary in my behavior. I am not Catholic on paper. Is there pre- vat2 catechism. Where can I turn, please

RCIA, STA, COCC are all Novus Ordo acronyms, so the first thing I read what what you wrote is that  you've been eating rat poison for at least 5 years. (Rat poison is 99% nutritious food, did you know that? It is the 1% that kills the rat, the 99% is there to attract it to eat.) The Novus Ordo is more like 20% poison, and more depending on your teachers. 
The second thing is that the sacraments ( the mass, communion, confession) you have been receiving may not be valid, may not be real sacraments because you have not ever been with a real priest.
Third and most important is your life and how you have been living it. If you are attached to sin, you will never receive arrive at the narrow gate that leads to salvation. In the Novus Ordo they can teach you that you that God accepts you as a sinner as long as you are nice and support the church with donations. It does not work that way! If you are a man living with a woman, fornicating, have a Novus ordo annulment, are t attached to pornography, going to the beach to see the naked women, lusting after women, going to bars to pickup women, self abuse, use drugs, drink excessively....... or if you are a woman dressing immodestly to attract men, going to bars, having relations with men.... If you are attached to any of those sins, you are an enemy of God, and will get nowhere with all your Hail Mary's, till you get rid of your sinful ways. 
So, the answer is to cleanse yourself of all of your iniquities in confession with a real priest and do not sin again. 

Those two last posts were from me, Last Tradhican