So I had this horrible nightmare last night and I'm scared it's from God.
It was the coming of Christ ( yes I know the Catholic church don't believe in the rapture) but there was a rapture. And the government were filming the people who were left behind - to mock us.
Me and my dad were being left behind . There was a lady ( in my dream I believe it was the virgin Mary) we looked to her to help us, my dad gave her his bag and she said it was dirty and tainted and handed it back . Other people gave her their bags, when I gave her mine, she said it was dirty and gave it back.
Then I was left,. I knew instantly that I was damned
I woke up and feel shaken by this nightmare
I'm now worried I might have "the mark" as I committed mortal sins earlier this year , I have been to confession. But perhaps I have the mark
is right.
You need to learn the Catholic Faith.
You worried about being saved? There's only one hope for you:
A) copious amounts of Catholic doctrine to wipe out the many errors you're holding in your mind, and
B) submission to a good Traditional (traditionally formed) Catholic priest that you can trust.
If you fail to take those measures, you might INDEED be damned in the end, because the devil laughs at those who try to guide themselves by their own feelings and personal lights. You are putty in the devil's hands.
Just remember, the devil is an angelic intellect. Only the grace of God -- manifested as truth, humility, obedience, and charity -- can defeat him.
P.S. You need to stop watching Protestant movies about the "rapture", and/or cut yourself off from your many Protestant friends. They are apparently confusing you big-time, and leading you into error. If you thus place yourself in an OCCASION OF SIN -- a situation where your Faith could be damaged -- it won't be God's fault if you lose the Faith. You'll only have YOURSELF to blame.