I guess you could say pretty faces are for difficult men! It is funny how much we look for simple validation up front and how quickly it evaporates the moment things get tough. You are fighting a noble fight, just keep baring your heart everyday to God and you will prevail... maybe not the way you presently expect, but at least concerning the final things.
Sometimes, even when you've heard the best advice out there, the best shoulder to cry on, the pain will still get you all alone and all you can do is throw yourself in the arms of the Holy Family. If you don't have a home shrine or altar, maybe it's time to put that together so when the pain sneaks up on you again, at least there's some place to go and something holy to look at without leaving the house. Get some large devotional statues, set some space aside, make it as baby-proof as possible. If your husband is so big about spoiling you, maybe he can start with helping you on that project.
God be with you and your family!