Hiya, I have a real problem with forgiving my parents for one specific thing , I have been trying to forgive them for 20 years. And I still am so so angry at them for it- and I can't shift it.
My sister wasn't happy at a school so they moved her to the school of her choice, and then I was separated from my friends and had to go there.
Age 12, When I was there I experienced servere bulling , I was hounded by two girls from the start of the day to the end off the day, they would tell my friends not to Hang around with me, throw tennis balls at my head , and they were in all my lessons. It was a rough school where teachers never taught lessons so kids were left to do what they wanted.
I reached out to my parents for help, as I felt terrrorized. It was too much for me to handle...
They told me sister to tell my teacher, when she did he wasn't interested and refused to help, I let my p.e teacher know they were spending the lesson throwing balls at my head and she refused to help
I begged my dad to leave the school and he said no, and that the teachers weren't helping , there was nothing he could do
He paid me £30 and took me to blockbuster to cheer me up.
So I received no help from teachers or my parents
I remember jumping up and down my my rroom crying terrorised wanting to kill myself, there was no help and no way out the school. I couldn't do another day of their torments , it was no stop
I didn't know how to survive ...
Sadly and luckily to my surprise, these girls would fall out alot and I can need up making friend with one of them, as a way of trying to get them to stop bullying me and a way of coping the next four years of this school.
To my disgust my parents welcomed her into my home for sleepovers no questions asked
I kept them her sweet for four years, upon leaving the school I distanced myself from her as I never liked them but had to survive the school.and one of them made a website about how ugly and stupid I was , I had to live with website for a long time
I just cannot forgive my parents for this, even though it was 20 years ago. I still ask them why they didn't help me. I've tried to forgive and I often ask God to heal my hurt from this time
But I'm still so so hurt and I feel still traumatized.