I am able to attend the true Mass so I have access to the sacraments, thank God. But it is a small chapel and there are so few of us. So except on Sunday it is like living in Sodom. I worry for the salvation of everyone around me outside of my chapel and see little hope for them. I am not depressed because I have hope that I myself may be saved, but what about all the others? What chance do all of the people have who do not receive the sacraments (nearly everyone else)? I mean if we really believe that outside the Church there is no salvation and that the Novus Ordo has defected and is no longer the true Church, then how many people will be saved? Certainly less than one percent of us. So even though I have hope for myself because I believe I have made good confessions, I feel like the little Fatima children who saw all those souls falling into hell like snowflakes and hardly anyone at all is saved.
Well, you are basically in the same boat as me then... (Except that I have been blessed to be able to go to a medium sized traditional Catholic parish and am the choir director there.)
My family members are all novus ordo, and because of our farm we get every sort of person coming out here from every part of the world. It is discouraging at times to see how far gone some of the people are, and how, even compared to those who claim to be "conservative Catholics" I seem radical...
I try to keep in mind the message of Our Lady of Fatima that, "When there seems no hope, then My Immaculate Heart shall triumph."
So, I try to tell myself that it must be getting close to being at that point, and that the sooner it gets worse the sooner it will finally get better...
We must pray and do penance; begging God to bring about the restoration of the Catholic Church.
Keep fighting the good fight and may God bless you!