Soulguard, you've only been here 2 months and you obviously are searching and learning. When one first comes here, one tends to want to read a lot and write a lot, and especially to connect with the like-minded.
Recently you said you were not going to come on CathInfo any more, but you came back. And I don't think it's a bad thing for you to spend some time here.
You say you lack discipline, and so knowing that Matthew won't allow deletion of your own posts, that's an added incentive to you to discipline yourself. Practice makes perfect, you know.
Now you post an average of 8.48 posts per day, that's 505 posts to date. Why not resrict yourself to a maximaum of say, 5 posts and don't go beyond that, no matter what. It would be a good way to take more care in using up your 5. Do it as form of penance.
Ensure that you are reading hand-held paper books, not the internet variety, as that is a temptation to get back on the computer and just to check in on what you've written earlier to see if you got thumbs up or thumbs down. You say you are attracted to religious life, but you cannot possibly succeeed in it, unless you learn to control your impulses. Even if you don't have a vocation you will need to learn to discipline yoursef for the sake of a future wife and for your own salvation.l
Give it a go. I am praying for you.