So recently I am truly experiencing some dark inner struggle or spiritual warfare as I mention in the title. As our lord said: "in the end times deception will be so great that even the ellect would be deceived if the times were not short". I mean so many attempts at relativizing the holy scriptures, the denial of God, the denial of even the objectivity of the morality, evolution, you name it. This attempt of liberation from God and the ten commandments truly puts our faith to a test, its like deep down the devil whispers me smoothly: "Why are you fasting? Why you pray? Why you go to Mass? Why do you abstain from the pleasures? Why you struggle in this modern world? Hop in! Have fun! Eat and Drink! Go for fornication! You are wasting your life in pursuit of this nonexistant idea." Truly is seducting the disease that the modern man caught, as Dostoievsky said: "If there is no God, everything is permitted", we can kill, we can rape, we can commit adultery, we can steal, you name it. I m just wondering is it normal to experience doubt? My reasonable answer would be to expect what you cant see, because that is what faith is, always bring doubt. But where was the doubt of the thousands of martyrs who gave their lifes, where was the doubt of the thousand of warriors who charged down the heathen lines for God, who left their homes, their money, their wifes, their family for God. I refuse to believe that these men died in pursuit of a fallacy and whoever holds this belief is truly a stupid man. Maybe this is a test from God like the parable of the sower who plants the seed in the middle of the thorns but the seed was chocked by them and didnt give fruit, I hope I am not one of those. I pray to God that he rids me of this tribulation and increase by faith and I make admonition to you brothers in Christ that you "pray for me, that my faith ceases not".